The immense pain, frustration, anger and confusion triggered by your husband's pornography addiction can easily disrupt or dismantle your relationship with God! There are some VERY raw realities about BETRAYAL TRAUMA and how it can cause "spiritual confusion." For example:
Why didn't God forewarn you about your husband's addiction before you married him?
When a husband engages in manipulation and "gaslighting" it can cause you to doubt your intuition. As one woman put it, "I felt like my "gut intuition" was broken!"
You may wonder why God didn't tell you about your husband's infidelity during all the past years of your marriage.
You may feel like God isn't protecting you so you have to protect yourself. Who exactly "has your back?!"
There can tend to be a DEEPLY flawed and incorrect religious/cultural stereotype that claims "men are more sexual beings" and therefore a wife is obligated to meet their "needs."
Why you need to develop your own personal "alliance" with God before you can or should look to your marriage relationship.
If you and your husband are to heal and stay together, there MUST be a 3-part division of responsibilities--HIS recovery; YOUR healing; the marriage relationship. Each is responsible for their OWN part, with God enabling and empower ALL to succeed.
Wondering if your marriage can survive porn and sex addiction? This article will give you some hope—https://www.reclaimcounselingservices.com/can-marriage-survive-porn How can you "heal" your marriage relationship?—https://www.reclaimcounselingservices.com/how-to-mend-your-marriage Ready to STOP Keeping Secrets in your marriage?—https://www.reclaimcounselingservices.com/no-more-secrets-in-your-marriage What is the difference between "True Intimacy" and "sex" in a marriage relationship?—https://www.reclaimcounselingservices.com/true-intimacy-vs-sex-in-marriage